I have had the worst month..lost two jobs. I finally got a little hope over the past few weeks, as I have been getting called in for interviews. Had an interview this week, that I felt I did very well in and they kept me there for three and a half hours having different people interview me. They were hiring four people for the position, and I really thought I had a good shot at the job. For the first time, in a long time, I had a little joy and excitement..only to receive in the mail today, a "thanks, but no thanks letter" from them. Then, I called to see if my application for unemployment was approved, and it was not...which crushed me. I thought I had a good chance at that as well, since I felt I was forced to resign from my last position. Not exactly the Christmas I wanted. At the end of the call, she said "your claim for unemployment was disallowed, Merry Christmas". I have been weeping all day, and just not doing well, I guess I don't handle disappointment very well. On top of that, I don't have the money to go to Florida to see my Dad for Christmas, and this is the 15th year, I have spent the holidays (Thanksgiving and Christmas) alone. I am tired of constant disappointments..tired of this struggle with life at times..tired of this illness. Thanks for listening. It has just been a bad day. I have a $100.00 to my name for food, gas and groceries and even part time work is slim pickings..I am trying everywhere. Things can only get better I hope and pray.