I hope your doc is able to give you something that helps. I would also suggest looking for a group therapy situation, so you can be around other like-minded people. You can use that as a sounding board. It needn't cost a lot of money. I'm not sure where you are from, but there is a group called Depression Bipolar Support (DBSA) that might have a meeting you could check out. They have really helped me.
Thinking about "checking out" is a sign you need some help. I hope you are able to find some. Always remember you can post on here as much as you need to. It has become my go-to when I'm really upset, and it always helps, even if it is just to get things off my chest.
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