HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really could use some advice

 

I have no experience dealing with medical problems, so I can't address how a person would handle the load you've been given, but it really sounds like you were good at that until the car accident thew you into overload. I do have experience with overload.

As I read, I saw a person who has lived well and now has reason to be depressed. You really need to talk with a counselor, but less about the depression and its effects than for help with handling how you think and feel about the doctors and med issues. It really sounds like once you have some relief and assurance that you have taken the best steps, nearly everything else will get better. Odds are that part of seeing those things better, you may even shuck those anxiety attacks once and for all too.

bev

I have had a crohnic disease since I was 12. I thought I had learned to deal with it for the past 30+ years. While I had developed a way of existing with it, I still felt like a victim of the disease. If it were me in your situation, I would investigate going back on some anti-depression med, it can take a few different tries to get the one that works best for you, and look into therapy again. I know that it has helpled me learn to live with my life circumstances rather than exist.

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"I thought I had learned to deal with it for the past 30+ years. While I had developed a way of existing with it, I still felt like a victim of the disease."

Cheer dad--I really found your post interesting, because what you said so resembles what many people who were sexually abused could/would say. I've tried to explain that happens with abuse to many people and they don't get it. I didn't realize that it could be the same way with illness or disease. You've expanded my view of the world. Thanks!

bev

lets see, I hear you guys with your depression and it is hard to handle and keep in control. Most of the time I can., but this month I have had another breakdown from it. First of all I am a victim of sexual abuse as a child, by my own parent. This went on for 4-5 yrs until I was old enough to say NO. Now I have chronic pain from my back. Sometimes those abuse feelings seem to come out every now and then especially when a MAN trys to move in on me or says something that offends me boy do they get the anger part thrown at them!
I have dealt with that part of my life although it seems to creep in every now and then. Now it is the Chronic Pain that I cannot accept. I wll never be the same again and I can't seem to beat this depression. I was angry the day before yesterday, yesterday sad, and now back to anger today. In fact my ISP is paying for it today Ha
I am switching to People pc for a test trial hope it works. Can anyone relate?

Reba

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Yes to the abuse. Yes to the anger. No to the chronic pain.

I don't know how different it is, but during the last few years while working for the Navy, I saw a lot of almost miraculous "cures" of injured backs. They used 4 different kinds of surgery on those fellows. I don't know what the last fellow had, but he was back at work pain free and literally as good as new in almost no time.

It's a far cry from what they could do when I started out there, and disease may be very different from injury, but from what I saw it seems like new methods are exploding on the scene. Maybe you can hope and search for a cure or fix now or sometime in the future.

bev

Thank you for your advice and support. The dr has started me back on lexapro as of 2 days ago. Unfortunently my scleroderma is contuning to spread so they are going to double my dose of methotrexate. I don't want to start whining again so I'll just leave it at that. :-(

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When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.