What's the latest?
When you were first reporting on your condition, you couldn't figure out heads or tails.
You were saying, "I figure that if it is something in my life that is making me feel so unhappy and low on motivation then the solution is simple. If it's loneliness, then organise to do things with people more. If my job is making me unhappy, then look for a new one or retrain or something. If my relationship is making me unhappy, then just end it. And I've thought about all of that and if it is one of those things wearing me down. My job is the job I always wanted, and I used to really enjoy, though not so much recently, but I think that's not because of the work but because of the fact that I just don't care anymore. My relationship can be rocky at times, and I think sometimes I can be a bit distant, but nothing has changed in my relationship so I don't think it's that getting me down... I have been trying to make sure that I do things with other people atleast once a week to try to combat loneliness, which is hard because I'd really rather be on my own... I know that makes no sense, but that is how it is."
So you thought it was something in your life that was causing you to be depressed. It could have been inherited depression. Maybe when you reached a certain age, it occurred.
Now that you are on an antidepressant, how do you see possible loneliness, your job, your relationship, each of which you thought might be causing you to be depressed?
You were first put on Mirtazapine around July 21, so you've been on it for about two weeks. Is that going OK, you said sleep was improved vastly with Mirt. I'm on that antidepressant, also. I think it's a good medicine.
You said your counselor was generic in her comments. For instance, when you told her you were not sleeping on the fluoxetine antidepressant, you wrote:
"She told me not to drink coffee three hours before bed, which could be useful if I actually drank coffee."
OK, demanding a lot from our counselors. My favorite from counselors was, whenever you told them about some horrible experience, they would respond, "How did that make you feel?"
Well, it could have been a three-car pileup and they would ask that question. It was a stage they went through for many years.
Oh, I did have one who went to sleep during one of my more interesting responses. Well, at least she was honest. She explained she did that with all of her patients because she had some kind of ailment, which made me feel better.
Anywy, so you're entering the counseling stage. Just wait till they learn you have insurance, and they suddenly realize you need to be hospitalized for four weeks, on your dime, to the tune of $40,000, at which time they will pronounce you cured, and turn you out into the street you haven't seen in a month, and you won't even know how to function.
Welcome, to the world of psychodrama. But they're trying, bless their little hearts.
So you've got the same mindless counselor, I mean, caring therapist. You've had your fourth appointment, is that right? What words of wisdom did she impart?