Waves of Depression

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   Posted 8/11/2017 5:07 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi all, this may have been posted before. But I'm still trying to get an understanding on my situation since my first therapy session hasnt been confirmed yet.

I've been inflicted with a sudden onset of anxiety followed by depression. It's very distressing and I've been finding it hard to cope. There are no noticable triggers, some days im rock bottom, other days I can literally feel the depression lifting and I become suddenly happy.

For the first 7 days upon having this, I was suicidal, I saw no way out. Had many panic attacks. But its all kind of died down and now I'm just left with a heavy headed feeling where I can rarely make myself happy. The only thing I think that has changed since the 1st day is that I now accept it more, so I panic less. But thats not good enough as my quality of life has dropped considerably. I'm going on a mountain walk/camping trip this weekend but i have no motivation for it...

Does anyone else experience this? I want to try avoid anti depressants but I'm starting to run out of answers. My diet has been improved, I'm training almost daily. I kind of feel that there isnt much I can do within my power to change this. I am just praying the waves of depression will slowly fade over time, instead of get worse.

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   Posted 8/11/2017 6:19 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome OX!

There is no way to know what caused it or how long it will last. Anxiety is real,and panic impacts us in a very real way. Depression makes us not look forward to the things we like to do--but guaranteed, you will be happy on the trip when you get there. It sounds as if you are doing the things you need to do to address the problem.

Why do you want to avoid ADs? It can make a great difference in the quality of life, and calm the thoughts long enough to reset emotionally in talk therapy.

I can only give my perspective--I have three chronic illnesses. My first one, UC, I started medication for in 2003. I hated I had to take a daily medication for the rest of my life. This condition has changed over time, waxing and waning with my overall health and lifestyle. Right now, I take no UC medications 9in a bit of remission) but do take pain killers, muscle relaxers, and ADs.

I guess what I saying is that the rest of my life is a long time--and just as things changed radically for you very quickly, change will happen. We work to address the current situation--not the one we might have, maybe. That kind of thinking is anxiety, which is real, but is not productive. Here and now.
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   Posted 8/11/2017 12:01 PM (GMT -7)   
I think you should consider seeing a psychiatrist, who can treat depression, anxiety and anxiety attacks.

A therapist might not guide you in that direction because that might be considered competition.

Depression, anxiety and anxiety attacks are treatable.

As for myself, I have bipolar and take Lithium, a mood stabilizer, for the mania and Mirtazapine for the depression.

When I was younger, at about 27, I had depression from losing a job and not being around people, and also because it was inherited, and also I was at or near the right age for emotional problems.

The untreated depression turned into anger, to intense anger, and then I had a nervous breakdown.

As far as the inherited part, for 10 years or more I never did get a correct diagnosis, until I was talking on the phone one day to a lay minister, who said, "I knew your uncle, and he was manic-depressive, and you probably are, too."

I told that to my psychiatrist, and I started getting a correct diagnosis, and the right medicine, Lithium, to go along with the antidepressant I was already taking. The Lithium helped greatly, by treating the mania for the first time.

So you want the correct diagnosis, so you can get the right medicine.

I also mentioned inheritance, to help with the diagnosis, and to help understand where any problems may have come from.

My mother's mother, had bipolar, so that's where it came from. So, it wasn't my fault, I just inherited it.

Do either parent or grandparent, or aunts and uncles have emotional problems? It can skip a generation, so one of your grandparents could have had such problems, but you parents might not, so you might want to look back a generation.

You might want to ask around and do that type of family history.

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   Posted 8/13/2017 12:44 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for the replies guys.

With the problem being very recent (last 2 weeks). I wanted to try every other option before going on the long term meds. Not that I have an issue with those. If it persists I will definitely consider these.

As far as i know my family dont have previous mental health issues. But will look into it! smile

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   Posted 8/13/2017 1:27 PM (GMT -7)   
Remember the medications take six to eight weeks to get in your system good. So it could take time no matter what route you take... But we are all a work in progress...

Hugs, Karen...

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   Posted 8/13/2017 2:40 PM (GMT -7)   
That is right that Medication takes that time. But some Medication is making me very depressed. Among other things. I know this is a just a way to vent. This is a side effect on Gabapentin. I cry when Im in the shower. I just want to feel normal. I dont go outside a lot cause of the pain. I try to stay inside. I have Trigeminal Neuraglia. Meow 3

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   Posted 8/13/2017 2:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Is gabapentin Neurontin? I couldn't take Neurontin as it made me stutter. I hated it.

I am sorry about the nerve pain. Have you tried lyrica? It is similar but yet different. If that makes any sense.

Hugs, Karen...

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   Posted 8/17/2017 6:10 AM (GMT -7)   
Ho Ox123,
I too started declining about three weeks ago and very fast. Mine started again with lots of anxiety and fear over everything. I was on a low dose of Cymbalta and have now increased. Feeling like there is no way out also. But I do have to constantly remind myself I am not my thoughts, that I am more than that bit so difficult. I've been looping lopping. Hope things get better for you.
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   Posted 8/17/2017 7:17 AM (GMT -7)   
First, get a complete physical including having hormone levels checked. This applies to men as well as women. Thyroid levels can impact our energy.

Second, check your nutrition. Are you in need of any supplements? I take extra vitamin D from November to about April. This has made a significant difference for me during the winter months.

Third, check your hydration. Are you drinking enough water? Don't wait until you 'feel' thirsty. By then, you're already in a state of dehydration. Lack of water can make aches and pains worse.

Personally, I watch a 'spiritual' program weekday mornings to help me 'start the day right'. I also have wall art with uplifting sayings scattered throughout the house. Sometimes, I even use a Sharpie marker and write down a saying that resonates with me and tape it to the wall or the bathroom mirror. Anything to help me get out of my own head. "This too shall pass" is one of my 'favorites'. I used to put this one up when I was at work, as that was the most stressful place for me. Deadlines every day! Now, I'm retired and need other sayings!
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   Posted 8/22/2017 5:43 AM (GMT -7)   
Sorry for the late reply. Maybe a hormone level check is needed.

As for supplements and diet. Im seeing absolutely no correlation from my diet to my anxiety attacks. I've eaten clean and still getting them. I eat alot of fish/pasta/cereal, I also drink alot of water.

Since all this started 3 weeks ago, I've been trying to replicate the 3 days I had which were completely anxiety free. And I mean not a single attack. It was as if it had just dissapeared, then BAM! Someone said something that worried me which triggered it again. How on earth can you lead a normal life if you cant handle bad news anymore?

I feel like I keep entering a vicious circle:
Something bad happens (arguement etc) > Anxiety attack followed immediately/a day later > more attacks follow immediately after that > Calm down completely about 8 hours later > I fear another attack in the morning > I sleep really bad > I wake up with anxiety > Repeat.

I'm writing this post after a pretty severe attack this morning at work. It really does hit me hard, as it probably does most of you. And it doesnt matter what Im thinking because the sadness is so strong its the only thing occupying my mind.

Im open to any more suggestions, literally ready to try anything now.

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   Posted 8/22/2017 6:22 AM (GMT -7)   
We get anxiety, it happens. What we need to learn is to control it and make it go away. Have you learned any breathing exercises to do during an attack? It really helps to curb the anxiety. I am willing to share if you are interested.

I hope you feel better...

Hang in there.

Hugs, Karen...

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