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GrantJada912
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   Posted 8/26/2017 5:04 PM (GMT -7)   
Everyday, I get made fun of for looking like a retard and making simple mistakes by people in public. I want to feel loved by my parents but they dont seem to love me. My mom ignores me sometimes and doesn't care what I say or do. Today, i ripped up my paitingbof me, dad, and mom, but she said thats fine. She said she liked it, but i doubt she did since she didnt miss it at all. My dad gets mad at me for hurting myself and he doesn't care. He justcares about his sleep and other things. I just feel unimportant to them completely. They say nice things to me, but it feels pike they're lying... They're nice people and i may be over reacting, but this is how it seems.

I just want to feel loved by someone. Anyone. But I can't get something like that. I've began to hate myself everyday second of my life since I was eight or nine and its getting worse. Everyday I want to die and I'm tired of living everyday. I take pills from a doctor I used to visit, but I dont see him or my therapist anymore.

My depression is coming back again and I am giving up on everything. I used to study Japanese and German and other languages, and i tried studying science and math for when im older, but I'm giving all of that up because I feel like an actual retard like people label me. I just feel like I don't deserve anything, nothing at all.

What should I do?

kellyinCali
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   Posted 8/26/2017 7:10 PM (GMT -7)   
I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. Do you have a pet? I find that my pets keep my life worth living. The unconditional love that they give is REAL and pure.

I think you need to see a psychiatrist and a therapist and get "resources" from them. Most counties (not sure where in the world you are) have community clubhouses for Behavioral Health. It is a place to go and play bingo or color and learn life enhancing skills too.

Don't give up on yourself!

Tim Tam
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   Posted 8/26/2017 7:28 PM (GMT -7)   
I think the same thing.

I was going to suggest you go to a dog kennel and walk one of their dogs, and give love to the dog and he'll love you back.

I have a dog, and he and I just went for a long walk today, and it was the highlight of my day.

We went earlier in the day than usual, and the warmer sunshine was nice.

Dogs are therapeutic. Your parents sound pretty nice the way you describe them.

You may be just going through a stage. If not, you might want to see a psychiatrist for depression or something.

Why do you hurt yourself?

theHTreturns...
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   Posted 8/27/2017 1:01 AM (GMT -7)   
thinking it time to have a chat with a school counsellor or teacher.

getting by
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   Posted 8/27/2017 3:39 AM (GMT -7)   
I would see a therapist or a psychiatrist. You need to learn to love yourself for who you are. That way you are always loved. It takes work but we all have to do it.

I also like the idea of a pet.

Hang in there. life does get better.

Take care and do keep posting, it helps to talk to somebody.

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NiceCupOfTea
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   Posted 8/27/2017 7:23 AM (GMT -7)   
How old are you, if you don't mind my asking? You sound quite young, like you're a teenager. Have you ever asked your parents whether they love you? Chances are, they do love you but some adults are appalling at showing love to anyone, even to their children. The reasons will go back to before you're born and have basically nothing to do with you. The fact that your parents sometimes tell you nice things makes me think that they do care about how you feel, but don't have the knowledge to handle a depressed, self-harming teenager. You perhaps need more time and attention than your parents have the ability to give. Are they depressed themselves? Working long hours? Tired out from other commitments?

I would go back to seeing a therapist - a different one if the last one didn't do anything for you, as it's important to have somebody you feel you like and can trust. Just talking about our problems to somebody who is genuinely listening to us can make us feel better.

That's just the start. Eventually you'll need to work on the attitudes and beliefs that lead you to being depressed in the first place, e.g. the feeling that you're a retard (I doubt that) and that people get mad at you for simple mistakes (you may be misreading their emotions; even if you are not, try not to let them disproportionately get to you. If they have no patience, that's their problem really, not yours). Oh, and don't give up studying - that's the worst thing you could do.
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BnotAfraid
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   Posted 8/27/2017 10:13 AM (GMT -7)   
You are not alone in the way you feel!

Today, in society there are many people that will listen to you and help you.

I know from experience, most likely there is more going on that cause you to harm yourself.

Reaching out for help is a COURAGous thing to do!

Suggestions:

Talk to the school nurse and/or counselor

Talk to someone from a church

Call your therapist and get back to work, only you can fight this, not one can do it for you.
We can support you!

National Suicide Hotline 
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.



Helpful Web Sites:


http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org


http://www.thehotline.org/


National Domestic Violence Hoteline 1-800-799-SAFE(7233)



Suicide Prevention Services Crisis Hotline 800-784-2433 



http://www.teencentral.net/


Please do not stop looking for help. You do not have to feel this way.
You ARE worth a lot. YOU are a good person!

Peace and strength
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Post Edited (BnotAfraid) : 8/27/2017 11:17:23 AM (GMT-6)

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