I've been told that I don't cry at the 'appropriate time' or for 'appropriate reasons'. Something as 'silly' as a Hallmark greeting card commercial can open the floodgates though.
Most of the time, when I realize I 'should have cried', repeatedly, but haven't, I will take a solo trip to the cemetary where my parents are and have a 'sob fest'.
For me, I think, since I 'have to be tough and keep it together' so much of the time, crying is a sign of vulnerability. The only place I find where I can go ahead is where people 'expect' tears and tend to leave me alone out of respect.
There is no time limit on grief, no right way or wrong way. I'm glad you found a bit of release.
multiple surgeries for rotator cuff both shoulders with residual chronic impingement syndrome, ulnar nerve transposition, carpal tunnel release, multiple wrist surgeries, multiple herniated discs, tarlov cysts, whiplash, bursitis of hips, grade 5 right shoulder separation and torn labrum, ovarian cysts, fibroid tumors of the uterus