Tallman as far as you not smoking WAY TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and to know you are in the midst of a smoker and still not lighting up, says alot about the inner strengths you do have. Congrats. As for driving in a large city, Man, can i relate, but you are driving!!!!!!!! you may not like it, and it is scary, but mind the rules of the road and just continue on as you have done, at least you are driving, that says alot too. I would say that perserverence is a good friend of yours, so keep up the good work, and keep it up, make a list of what you have accomplished, and I am sure you will find out that you are making it through a very tough, and painful time in your life, "let God take the wheel Tallman, your boat is going through a storm right now, but stay strong, cast your nets upon the water, He is there, in the midst, He is walking on the water, call out too him, he will hear you, as he does each of us. Stay strong my friend, stay strong. "Father, wrap your guiding and loving arms around Tallman and each of us, carry each of us Father as you have already done when we grow weak and tired from our Journeys, lead us to safety, shelter, peace, sucess and serenity Father, in Jesus name Amen. Thank you for those who are willing to share their stories with us, and for those who know our illness, for it is by your stripes, we are healed, and by your love mercy grace and forgiveness that we are saved, Thank you. Remind us to love and care for those as you have done, unconditionally, and may each of us that have fought the Devil himself through surviving our mental illnesses, and such be able to step on his head daily as we get closer to being free from the bondages of depression and of darkness that can only come from one who is afraid of the light and strength that he sees comes from each of us who are standing together, for each other, and for our personal freedom. Congrats to everyone for our daily fight of survival. We have all done well, we are still here, and that's what counts. Keep up the good work. You deserve it, life that is, and true peace.