I have really bad anxiety, and I think I may have depression too. I know nobody on here can really diagnose me, but I want more people's input. I'm 14 years old, and every time I tell someone about
what I'm feeling, they just tell me that that's normal for teenagers.
I get really, really sad at random times, sadder than I usually get. I feel like I have no future, that I'm useless, and that every good thing I try to do is worthless, and that people hate me. I've been getting sad like that at random times more often. Nothing triggers it, I could be having a good time with friends and then all of the sudden I'm super sad. Whenever I do get sad, it may be from something on TV or hearing bad news, but I get super sad, sadder than most people when they hear those things.
Sometimes I just feel empty, I just don't feel anything. I get thinking about
my future, what I want to do with my life, and I just feel hopeless. I've had thoughts of self-harm, not to kill myself, but to just hurt myself. I don't want to cut if I start I know I won't be able to stop, so I've started to wear a rubber band around my wrist and snap it against my wrist until the feeling goes away. I also hold an ice cube in my hand until the feelings stop. I'm just scared that one day that won't be enough to stop me from cutting.
I don't want to tell my parents because they're already stressed out enough, I don't want to add anything more for them to worry about
. I think I may have depression, but I don't know how to get tested for it (if you even get tested, idk how people are diagnosed with it). If I get diagnosed with it, I feel like I would be disappointing my parents, and I don't want anyone to look at me differently if I do have depression. Can anyone give me any advice? I just need help.
Post Edited (Panic!atthemargo) : 4/23/2018 1:32:28 PM (GMT-6)