Posted 7/12/2018 8:04 PM (GMT -7)
I know that the following is not as heavy a load as some of you are carrying. But with my therapy crap and my daily pain, and no family at all it is emotionally exhausting.
So I feel I have to get some support here.
My husband and I are seperatated.
He will be moving into his mothers house by Aug 12th. We will try to stay friends and not divorce, because of all the investments and 401k's we put together. loose way to much money cashing them out to split.
I put my foot down and sad he either had to move in with his mom or his girl friend, that he claims he is in love with. this took a week of constant discussions and on his part of trying to manipulate me into other answers to the problem. I stood strong, although, I did have hysterical crying bouts.
I have known for 15 years our marriage was in trouble, but he insisted it was fine, and you cant work on marriage with only one person. Believe I tried everyone even breaking some of china til he walked out to avoid talking to me.
I feel that perhaps, he is not to be part of my future in a large way. Perhaps God is clearing some rubble from my path. Even though it feels like he is blowing up bridges before me.
I do not trust John the way I did. So I am taking, smart precautions, making copies of things, squirreling away $ etc... even though he is being kind at the moment, he has been trying to manipulate things for his benefit.
Plan is that when his mother dies, one of us will stay in her house half a mile away from this one. Originally he was going to sell it.
Anything can change, but one day at a time.
He did not want to tell his mom the truth, Shame, most likely, so I went over today to take her incontinence supplies, she asked, I told. So he went over on the way home and came clean. Doesn't matter. She thinks he is entitled to an affair, because I have been in therapy for 7 years. ???? I know.
I am heart broken, devastated, relieved, scared, rageful, empowered, filled with dread, making list after list after list so I know I will be ok in the end. Keep asking myself how I GOT HERE. How did I let this happened.
Thanks for reading this if you did.
I greatly appreciate it.
Peace and comfort to all
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"...when the gift of sight is cause enough for jubilation."
Billy Collins from the poem. HIGH
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain;Hemicrania Continua; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;