I got the shot in December. It's July now and the depression has yet to leave and my period has yet to come back. I only spot every now and then. The anxiety and depression actually made me lose weight, but after that subsided with Prozac, I started to gain it back. I've now gained more weight (which luckily, doesn't look bad on me). I have only gotten one shot and I think that although it's supposed to be effective for three months, I have read online that it takes a full 18 months to fully get out of your system. In addition, other women have had trouble getting pregnant after over a year or two of getting the shot.
I can't tell if the depression is because of the Depo, but it did start around the same time. If anything, it certainly got my mind on a depressed state and since then, it's been hard to break from it. I try my best to keep my mind occupied. I don't think about
things that make me anxious, or I try not to. I sing a song in my head or limit myself to one word per breath when I think. That way I have less time to think something irrational and I can see it coming. I have also experienced being agitated for no reason or just simply being in a bad mood. I feel like I can't appreciate the good things around me even when there's nothing wrong. My boyfriend has been understanding, which is wonderful. However, there is a huge difference in how much of a good time we have together between my few good days and many bad days.
As I've been keeping a mental check on myself and trying to manage my mind, with a good support system, I've been having more good days. I keep in mind that healing isn't linear and there will be times when I feel like I'm not making progress. But that's normal. I've been on a slow steady uphill since I've spoken with family and friends about
how to cope. I've been doodling in a book with drawing prompts. I've been taking the time to lay down outside and watch the sunset--while practicing mindfulness of my surroundings. Nature is something so calm and something so easy to observe. It also helped me appreciate everything around me and how fortunate I am to be able to watch the sunset (a beautiful, free activity that relaxes the mind).
But just keep going on. This shot may have resurfaced an existing depression or caused an irrational one, but either way, there's a way to move on from it.
Post Edited (caterinad) : 7/30/2018 9:36:15 AM (GMT-6)