As I put in the subject, I haven't posted here in a long time. I think the last time was about a year ago.
Last time I posted I was having alot of problems with my son and his anger.
My husband had an anger problem most of marriage as well. He had a bad childhood, so I know why it was there. I really tried to be supportive during our marriage. It was hard because it felt like we were all walking around on eggshells. It seemed like our son got the worst of it. I tried to mediate between the two, but when our son starting showing signs of anger, I felt like I had failed him.
I ended up filing for divorce the last quarter of last year. My husband has moved out and we have our son 50/50. Even though I filed it has been so hard. I feel like I failed everyone. I just couldn't go on the way it was. I was trying everything I knew to fix things. Once I filed my husband said he had no idea why I was unhappy....Did I not communicate??? Was I so far off on what was going on??? Sometimes I really wonder. He is getting settled in his new house, but he hates me so much. I feel like the worst person that ever roamed the earth.
I know for me it was the right thing to do. But does that really make it right?? It's pretty selfish of me I think.
I know I'm just rambling. I don't know what I expect from posting here. Guess I just needed to write somewhere...
Thanks for reading...