Posted 10/20/2018 8:26 PM (GMT -6)
Great post Karen! Sure, I bet we all have this to some degree.
I am already working on a pros and cons list, If I bake who to give cookies to.
This year I have NO family not one person to buy a gift for or celebrate with. In one way this good.
Others it is not. Lets not dwell on that. I know, volunteer etc... I have plans for next year.
Karen, I can not remember more than I or 2 peaceful thanksgiving and Christmas ones I remember are a blur.
Best left alone.
Currently I am working on honoring what I did as a child to survive. I found out that I was one smart kid.
But darn, I have to process more Anger and rage, What could I have been if I had been loved and encouraged.
water under the bridge, the abuse made me who I am now, but still the thought lingers.
It will pass as all useless ruminations.
We can not change the past, but til my last breath, it is my goal to be present, grateful each day. Like this morning there was homeless man in line at the WaWA[convienence store] I paid for a large coffee for him.