Welcome to the forum.
You are a person, that legitimacy enough to like you. I believe you posting here shows that you are social and would like validation that there IS goodness in you. Well yes, there is. You are not alone. We all feel like this at some point in our lives.
Have you talked to your doctor about
how dark your thoughts are? Perhaps your should, you could have major depressive disorder.
May I such getting the book THE MINDFUL PATH TO SELF-COMPASSION. I believe your negative thoughts are coming from self hate.
Here is a link that may shed some light your emotions. You can start feeling better about
Orjuan, if you listen to this podcast, I would love to hear what you think. I look forward to response.
I wish you peace and strength