Had a nice day up in London yesterday with my mum. But today has not been a great day to put it mildly. Firstly, I feel like every bit of me is falling apart at the seams, physically. I've been having terrible problems with my teeth: they keep on bleeding, no matter how carefully I brush them, use interdental sticks, etc. And not just a drop or two, but quite a bit. It started a few years ago. My NHS dentist fobbed me off for five years, until finally my parents' dentist told me I had periodontal disease and bone loss. The bone loss is irreversible and probably caused by prolonged use of steroids in the past.
For a while thorough cleaning and flossing seemed to improve things, but this year I have been fighting a losing battle. Saw the dentist last month - x-rays showed the bone loss has got worse. I changed my brushes to the ones the hygienist suggested, but it's made no difference. Still got sore, bleeding teeth. Really depresses me, just like my eyes depress me. I try not to think about
it too much, but it gets to me - I hate my crap teeth, my crap eyes, my crap bowels.
On top of that, I just feel completely helpless and despairing about
Brexit and how hopelessly corrupt our politics has become. There was a Tory leadership contest tonight - Theresa May won. If we had a leader who wasn't utterly corrupt and terrible, that would probably be good news. This isn't good news. A zombie leader with no authority is now immune for 12 months.
And then there's the ever-growing hideousness that is Brexit casting its shadow over the entire country like some giant version of Damocles' sword waiting to knife us all.
There is no version of Brexit which isn't bad for the UK. The two choices are between immediate disaster (no deal) and delayed disaster (May's deal). I'm dreading it. The UK is already in decline after 8 years of the Tories, but that decline will be sharply accelerated by Brexit. If the GDP drops by a few percent and the economy contracts, there will be vastly less money available for the NHS, public services, benefits. (But you can bet the rich will still get their tax cuts somehow.)
I suppose if it was 20 years ago I wouldn't be a fraction as worried as I am now. But now I'm chronically ill, use the NHS constantly, am on benefits. At least in a no deal scenario, everyone is in the same dire boat straight away. But in a more played out Brexit, the consequences will be delayed and the well off people will be more cushioned. It worries me every single day. I know I can't control the future but that doesn't stop me worrying.
Well anyway. To end on a teensy bit less depressing note, I went to my gardening place today and made a snowman. Not out of literal snow, sadly. We've had none. But out of wood, sticks, and other bits and pieces. Using the glue gun was a bit of a nightmare, as the glue dried in about
0.352 seconds. https://imgur.com/gallery/ig9djmd
Karen - I finally got your email, but I need to go to bed now... If I can't sleep though, I'll give it a try >.>
PS: Trina - Thanks! I will search for it on the google playstore.