Welcome to the forum!
You are not hopeless! Plus you are not alone!
Journaling is a great tool to use with PTSD. I have been using it for 8 years.
There are other ways to handle it also. I have going to post a link to a free site that I use on a weekly basis to inspire me, keep on the positive side of daily life. https://www.mindful.org/the-magnificent-mysterious-wild-connected-and-interconnected-brain/
Keep posting here so we can support you in your progress. Many of us are going or have been thru what you are dealing with.
Peace and strength