Why am I hopeless?

I never wanna change my life anymore. It’s like my body wants to be this way. I try making my self happy. I’m kinda thinking my depression is caused by PTSD. But who gets PTSD from a highschool girlfriend break up. I know that is terrible but I actually think I cared about her that much. And when it ended I was in my worse feelings and thoughts. Now I have thoughts and feelings still and I express them by writing a book. This book is my savior and helping hand I needed.

Welcome to the forum!

You are not hopeless! Plus you are not alone!

Journaling is a great tool to use with PTSD. I have been using it for 8 years.

There are other ways to handle it also. I have going to post a link to a free site that I use on a weekly basis to inspire me, keep on the positive side of daily life.

https://www.mindful.org/the-magnificent-mysterious-wild-connected-and-interconnected-brain/

Keep posting here so we can support you in your progress. Many of us are going or have been thru what you are dealing with.

Peace and strength
Trina

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Moderator - Depression

"...when the gift of sight is cause enough for jubilation."
Billy Collins from the poem. HIGH

DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain;Hemicrania Continua; Complex Migraines: raynauds;Complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder with psychotic features. Laryngopharyngeal Reflux Disease [LPR]

Thank you all!! Yeah this was my first break up and it hit me the hardest. about 8 months and I still feel it 2 years later. My depression got more noticeable after it and it hurts me. Not physically but mentally. I don’t like medication because it changes my personality and makes me feel secluded. The person I talk to the most about my thoughts and feeling wants me to get help and Im willing but. Medications never work really well with me since I have health issues. Such as Cystic Fibrosis. I plan to seek help but need the right meds this time.

You are not alone. A first love (and break up) is very traumatic. I like that you are writing your thoughts and experiences in your book. I also like the saying:

"What we can feel, we can heal."

So, let the tears come and cleanse your spirit. Your heart is not hardened and that is a GOOD thing!