I am 18, turning 19 in August. My parents made me drop out of school after junior high. I dealt with a bit of social anxiety but came close to making friends toward the end of 8th grade. Since I left school, I’ve never had any friends and rarely get to leave the house. I did very well in school, and I know I missed out in so many opportunities. A great high school here invited me to apply and I would have taken AP classes, been on the math team and all. Lately I’ve been feeling pretty depressed about
it, not to mention pretty lonely. I should be graduating this year and as I look back, especially when I hear from other kids graduating this year about
all the amazing things they’ve done and great times they’ve had, I realize that time went by so fast and I’ve done nothing. I’ve become really irritable, It’s really hard to get up in the mornings which is unusual for me, and I feel strange, sort of like I have no energy all day or desire to get out of bed in the morning, especially knowing I have nothing to look forward to but sitting at home and dealing with my parents who argue constantly and sort of use me as a pawn in the process. I could get my GED, but I have relatives that took that path and never got anywhere with it, and I’m not sure I’m ready for university. It’s tougher to make friends there, there is more stress, and I’m not sure It’s the best place for me right now. I have the opportunity, though, to go to a good high school here if I can test into senior year, which I’m confident I can. With a diploma, I could also apply to better universities and maybe get into a math/physics related program which I am interested in doing. I’ll be older than most of the other kids there, though (the closest is a senior who’ll turn 19 a couple months before the end of the year). Do you think I’ll be looked down on? Can I make friends and make up for what I missed out on? What would you do? Thanks.
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