Posted 7/8/2019 11:32 AM (GMT -6)
HT so sorry you are having such a bad time with pain and manic, I can say I empathize and send you compassion and prayers. You know this will pass as all does, peace will be on the way soon.
Kathy, if you want the childhood home do want you can to get it, although being an accountant in my former work life, I feel the need to suggest not becoming "house poor" for it. I wish you good luck with this.
You always have the memories.
For me, I do not quite understand it, but I did not have a good childhood. I have driven past the house twice since my brother sold.
It was freaky, the people had repainted it to the same exact color it was when it was built in 1959. Cut all the trees down in the front yard. Talk about flash backs!!!
I have been MIA, because once again I was in-patient. Carrier hospital. create place.
Did all the right things this time. Called a suicide support person, went to group, brought 2 people home, called [seperated from] husband, he came right home, we called list of places til. we found a bed.
Triggers was seeing a picture of him at a friends daughters wedding with is girlfriend. I will just say she is more free than me and culturally different in dress, purple hair etc...
I was not told about the wedding. Friend for 20 plus years have chosen John and he new 34? yr old arm candy.
so I have deactivated my Face Back account. I wanted to keep messenger open for my few acquaintances.
So with no family of my own, his family not talking to me, his mother telling me he is not cheating, and it was my abuse and my declining health being culprit, and I should move on. Yea nice uh?
AH, the pity party destroys you every time right!?
But I was out in 6 DAYS, still terrible depressed and in despair but NOT suicidal.
I hope everyone is doing better than when Iast posted
LYNNWOOD, I pray your pain is low or gone by now.
Pitmom, hope your issues are settling down, you have such baggage, something has got to give!
Karen, sorry the pup and the squirts, Doodehead, gets them too!, eats anything that moves! I can stay out and watch her all the time, too hot.
Peace and strength all
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"...when the gift of sight is cause enough for jubilation."
Billy Collins from the poem. HIGH
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain;Hemicrania Continua; Complex Migraines: raynauds;Complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder with psychotic features. Laryngopharyngeal Reflux Disease [LPR]