Posted 1/14/2020 8:27 PM (GMT -7)
We've all heard that expression ' it is never too late too change your life', but I've been wondering lately if this is true.
I am stuck in a career that I don't like and my personal life sucks . Yes, I am trying to change my careers by applying for other jobs, but I'm not getting any calls and most of the job postings I see want people just out of school-darn ageism!
As for my personal life, well, it is really non-existent. I have few friends and not married or in a relationship. My only close family are my parents and my brothers. As much as I like being single, and not answering to anyone, I do fear growing old, alone, and becoming a 'cat lady' ( not that I have anything against cats). I've tried online dating, etc., but I haven't met anyone, despite doing online dating for a while. I understand that some people meet there significant others through dating sites, but most of the guys, that I met ,are just plain weird or emotionally unstable or unavailable.
I started off 2020 optimistic and full of hope, but my optimism is slowing turning to pessimism. I'm started to feel like 'what's the point in doing anything' nothing will change and I'm just too old. I know that it is a horrible thought to have, but I can't shake it. I don't know anymore... maybe I feel this way because of my depression or nothing is happening as quickly as I like.