Posted 2/25/2020 8:18 PM (GMT -6)
I'm again stress about my finances. Yesterday, I had a dental emergency and had to spend $50 for a consult. It turned out that my cavity filling fell out, so now I have to pay $150 just to have it replaced. I thought that fillings were suppose to last forever.
$150 is a lot for me, especially since I'm not making that much. Even grocery shopping is a lot. Last week I spent almost $50 and had four small grocery bags to show for it. My refrigerator is practically empty. I now buy a lot of frozen vegetables and can and dry goods as they are cheaper.
The price of everything has increased, but unfortunately my paycheck has not! I'm looking for a part time job where I can work at home, but am not seeing anything. Everyone wants money, but I really have none to give. Even at a
church meeting, one of the ministry leader went on about how people should tithe, etc. I felt like she was directing her comments at me, and I really had to bite my tongue from telling her to shut up! Don't get me wrong, I believe in tithing, but what are you suppose to give if you are struggling to pay your bills!
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. Almost everyone, from all backgrounds, I speak to is financially struggling. Something's got to give. My mom thinks that the stress is causing me to become more tired and lethargic which I agree. I'm trying to control my stress levels, through exercise, etc., but it doesn't seem to be working.
At the beginning of the year, I brought a journal to write out my specific goals for the year and week; this too has also caused me stress. I'm very hard on myself if I don't achieve a specific goal, so I no longer use my goal journal which I now consider a waste of money.
Even my appearance has suffer. I use to put myself together when I go to work, etc., but I now just can't be bother. I emotionally feel much older than I am. I just wish things would get easier.