Hi, new here. I've struggled with milder forms of depression for most of my life. about
two years ago, a significant romantic relationship ended. Looking back, my partner was most definitely emotionally abusive and the end triggered a much more severe depression, which I've been fighting to come out of ever since. As I read about
how to overcome this, so much literature points to the necessity of social support. Social support that has been near impossible to come by. I feel I have to fake happiness, and if I don't, no one will want to speak to me, or be in my life. I have no idea how to make new friends, and a recent new friend even complained to me about
their work, but backed off completely when I complained about
mine. Going so far as to say I sound jaded after I explained to this person what was happening. Needless to say, I took this somewhat hard and now am at the point where I'm embarrassed to even reach out again. I can't tell if my issue is that people are truly backing off, or if I just perceive that they are backing away prematurely and give up all effort on my end. Any thoughts/tips on what to do? I especially struggle in times where I am having an awful day, or my thoughts skew negative, and I just really, really need someone to talk to and get reassurance. I am in therapy, but once a week, and it doesn't seem like nearly enough human contact for what I have been going through. I have a few friends who don't live in my city, but they seem to get exhausted with me. My family too.
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