I to live in canada and am pretty sure healthcare will cover a psycho;ogist,if not ,if you are a university student check out you benifits thru your university as you may be covered thru them (I know some universities have extra health coverage)
I can relate to alot of what you are saying as I feel the same way sometimes .I to used to binge drink to hide myself from the world and would blackout all the time ,and realized it wasnt helping me deal any better .Don't be scared to go to a doctor and if they prescibe medication it isnt the end of the world and dont feel ashamed to use the presription they do help..I do not tale anything now but feel like i should at times ,I try to stay positive and live one day at a time I dont stress about
years from now ( i used to ) and you will find what you want to do in life sometimes it takes longer for some people but dont worry about
it you will find your path in life .
You always have a place to come and vent in hw and although my words may not be what you are looking for perhaps some one elses may be my only advice is what I do Get up each day live it to the best you can and the rest will fall in place if you let it
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.