Posted 5/22/2020 11:32 AM (GMT -6)
Happy Friday everyone.
Wednesday night my potassium bottomed out ended up in ER, I thank God for my dog who revived me enough to reach for my phone, and called 911. They pinged it.
This will take at least 5 days to regain strength, husband pissed I called at 1am to come pick me up.
I don't how I did it, but I drove and came back safe from drug store with 5day script of potassium drink .
There is a lot to deal with, accept and decide way to do. I no longer have an emergency contact. Husband does not want be to contact him. and I have been civil this whole time.
Thursday afternoon, I realized, my family always wanted me gone, Johns family never liked me, now what there is left of Johns family and him are pushing me to commit suicide, or at least try again. John himself did this in Feb 2018 and I almost made. it.
So I need to take a few days, maybe the weekend off the forum. and try to organize the my thoughts.
The only steadfast decision I have made at this point, is those cruel and foul people are not worth dying for and I have worked too hard to give them what they want. They do not know it yet, but they have awoken a rattlesnake, and when I can think clearly and my blood tests are good, I will be talking to lawyers. I have
18 references from a neighbor site .
In the meantime, I am not taking his calls. Doesn't want me to call him, but up my ass all day. Does not work that way.
Thanks to anyone that read this.
I did not help me as much as I thought it would.
Guess because the reality is that except for my dog, I am truly alone..
I would rather be homeless and have people that cared.