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Posted 11/7/2020 5:29 PM (GMT -7)
HI. HT
Posted 11/8/2020 3:51 AM (GMT -7)
Hi Jamie,

Have a good sleep mate.

Hope all is well.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/8/2020 3:11 PM (GMT -7)
GB, I did color my hair. It's much darker than I'm used to. I did it to cheer myself up and not 'let myself go'. It's great to hear that Luna is doing better. She probably is chasing her tail out of habit. Maybe a behavioral specialist can help?

I'm glad the elections are finally over-at least I think it's over. What isn't over is the anxiety that many people are still feeling. Never in my lifetime have I seen an election, with the exception of President Obama, produce such a wide range of emotions. I just hope the new President will be able to get this corona virus under control. It has caused so much misery.

My young cousin had a baby today. I'm so happy for him, but this has caused me to feel a bit depressed about my life. It feels like everyone close to me is moving on or settled in their lives. I just feel like I haven't done anything worthwhile-no stable job, not a lot of close friends, and no family of my own. I'm very sad and angry at myself although I am trying to change at least one part of my life by finding a job. I don't want to have pity-party for myself, so I guess I'll stop whining and do something productive like exercise.

Have a good night/morning everyone.

Post Edited (ForeverPositive) : 11/8/2020 3:17:10 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 11/8/2020 6:23 PM (GMT -7)
How many times have you made people smile, FP? I think that it a good measure of how worthwhile a life is.
Posted 11/8/2020 8:05 PM (GMT -7)
Hi All.

Forever, I get how you feel... and it sure can make a person feel down trodden.

I have no children, no family at all, and husband is gone.

However, years can not be returned, if we went back, we would not have the knowledge we have now. This is because we didn't life through the things which taught us the lessons.

I have been sitting in stillness lately, in stead of meditation.

I let a ruminating thought bounce around my head, then slowly I tune into my surroundings.
Maybe outside, nature sounds playing inside
Classical music taking back in memory..
Get it
Then I am relaxed, sometimes, I realize a bit what good I have done....
Posted 11/9/2020 4:05 AM (GMT -7)
Hi Forever,

They used to say unmarried women were lacking in life, but now they say they are strong. Think of yourself as independent and strong. You will find your companion on your terms. In the meantime keep being strong and keep growing. You are such a success. Remember that.

HI Kathy,

How's things going for you? I bet you are busy.

Hi Trina,

I am glad you are meditating.

Have a good day all. Not much of a brain yet this morning.

Hugs to all...

Karen...
Posted 11/9/2020 9:03 PM (GMT -7)
Hi Karen,

No I am not busy at all. I have been out of work since June and am living off my retirement . I am here by myself most of the time with my senior dog who is not very active. I have many projects to do but I have run out of enthusiasm. I guess it's the same for all of us stuck at home alone and out of work.

We got 5 or 6 inches of snow today. My dog and I have been sitting on our tuchus' all day. The cat did get up periodically to change her napping place. I will try to get out tomorrow to catch senior day at the thrift store.
Posted 11/10/2020 2:51 AM (GMT -7)
Hi Kathy,

I am not busy either though I could be. I have so much catching up to do. I am lucky if I get one thing done a day. I have been walking my dog daily but that will end soon. The weather has been nice but it is going to change tomorrow. We will probably get a snow storm. It is supposed to be windy and cold.

I hope you have fun at the thrift store. I love going to them.

Have a good day today.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/10/2020 6:12 AM (GMT -7)
Hi Forever and Trina -- I can also identify with this, as in having little in terms of family, relationships, etc. Actually, it would be fine with me at this point if I could retire and live simply somewhere... as in getting away from the rat race, which must still be run for the time being.

Hope everyone stays well and the election finally goes away as a topic. Suing one's way to the presidency seems unlikely to succeed.
Posted 11/10/2020 7:07 AM (GMT -7)
Hi Paul,

I am kind of tucked away from the rat race at this time and it is nice. I hope you get your wish. I am close enough so if I need to go I can without traveling too far, but far enough away to be able to enjoy life.

Have a nice day.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/10/2020 9:34 AM (GMT -7)
Hi All!

Kathy hang in there.
When I was a kid, someone told me girls are like tea bags, strongest in hot water. Always irritated me, was no solace as a child.
But darn true as an adult.

If you need to, feel free to email me.


PAUL! 2 nights. Ago!! I was reading an article where 3 50-60 some person s bought
1.5 acres of land in MI. together.

Put 1 bedroom houses on it, share taxes.
Didnt say anything about utilities.

Tried to look it up last night when I couldn't sleep, could not find the record
Must have changed the names for safety.

Note! Land is a lot less expensive then on the east coast....

Peace
Posted 11/11/2020 3:38 PM (GMT -7)
Hi all. Still muddling through. They still haven't replaced the utility pole. Director fired first company for not showing up for 2 days. Non-profit, so the job has to go out for bids again...starting from scratch. Wish it could have been done when the weather was warm. I'm not going to like sitting here chilled when they finally do come. At least I have fleece lined pants and a ton of hoodies to choose from!

This early dark is hard on me. I get sleepy/lethargic. Over did things yesterday...dragged out the outdoor decoration bins from the shed, ran to the hardware store to get things to 'button up' the construction zone of my hallway and block the drafts and seal the leaks, put the cover on the window air conditioner, unpotted my canna plants and got them bagged up for winter storage, shut down the water line that feeds the hoses and made myself porkchops with barbecue sauce and buttered egg noodles for my supper. Today, I went to the Veteran's Day celebration and wreath laying in town, then back home to basically spend the rest of the day in bed.

I've enjoyed having the windows open these past few days and letting the house breathe. Raining now, so only the windows with the overhang are open but it will soon be too cold to leave them so. I gave my rocking recliner to my daughter to use at her place. Mostly, the dog was using it! Every time he'd get on and off, I'd worry it would rock back and break the window. Now that it's gone, there's a clearer path from the hall through to the kitchen. I like it.

Rather than more thrift shopping as usual, I used my money to help out an essential worker(nursing home) who came up against an unexpected expense...fleas! She has indoor cats and has taken another to foster. Somehow, all now have fleas and tapeworms. Her household is similar to what mine was...3 generations...remote schooling and only one adult working/income. I ran to the stores for the needed items and dropped them off at their home. Told her to 'pay it forward' when she can. I've been in her shoes and know how that straw could break the camel's back.

It's been great to sit outside and watch the little birds winnow the ornamental grasses for their seeds. I've put out fresh suet for them, too. The only thing still blooming is the pineapple sage that will go on and on until a hard frost/freeze, although I found one vinca major by where I keep my trash can! Hopefully, the three amaryllis that I put in storage a couple of weeks ago will be coming out of dormancy soon and I'll have that greenery and blossoms to get me through the winter. Hoping everyone has a peaceful 24 hrs.
Posted 11/11/2020 4:27 PM (GMT -7)
Hi Trina,

I wonder where about in Michigan. Some places are cheaper, acreage. Depending on the location. Property up in the UP used to be pretty cheap. If you bought 40 acres you could get good deals. But so many people are moving here from down state that things are kind of going up.

Hi Pitmom,

I would be frustrated with the power pole situation too. We have a tree that we want the utility company to cut down. It is right next to the power line. A huge tall poplar. There is supposed to be a tree company coming through this month to trim. I hope that they take that tree out.

I think paying it forward is cool and what you did was so kind. Thanks for sharing.

I hope you both have a good night.

Good night to all,

Good morning to Jamie.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/11/2020 4:30 PM (GMT -7)
Forever,

I forgot to add that Luna is seeing a behavior specialist. They put her on prozac. Doggie kind called Reconcile. I think it has helped a little. Or maybe she is starting to grow out of it, which I hope is the case.

Have a good night...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/12/2020 2:43 AM (GMT -7)
I spent the day making pincushions out of little objects I find at thrift stores. I make a ball out of fabric, fill it with fiberfill and stuff it in. Like they used to make out of porcelain ladies shoes. In fact, I have several of those to remake into pincushions. I am thinking of selling them on Etsy, but I’m a little nervous about doing that because I’m afraid I’ll screw it up. I guess I’ll have to be brave.
Posted 11/12/2020 4:45 AM (GMT -7)
Yes Kathy,

Be brave and see how it goes. The worst is that things don't sell, but they sound cute so I bet they will.

I made a bunch of pictures out of birch bark and dried flowers. I am scared to put them on internet too. But I think I am going to try.

Have a good day.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/13/2020 6:54 AM (GMT -7)
Hi Karen and Trina -- thanks, your words provide inspiration to work towards leaving the rat race and maybe doing something like pooling resources with people to get away. In fact, maybe someone I know would be interested, though I don't know all that many, and the ones I do know seem content with their lives. So we'll see...

Have a good weekend everyone...
Posted 11/14/2020 4:41 PM (GMT -7)
I filled in yesterday at my old job. It was really good to see everybody and talk to people in the flesh. It makes me feel a lot better. Blizzard up here today, but no snow in Denver. The highway is closed going west up to the continental divide. I got stuck in it but did a little finagling , including 4 wheeling, and got on to the frontage road so I could get home.
Posted 11/15/2020 2:54 AM (GMT -7)
I can't handle the rat race Paul. I am not completely in the country but not very populated where I am. I like it okay but would love living farther out where there isn't traffic and my dog could run.

Awesome Kathy. I am glad you enjoyed yourself at the old job. I have a 4 wheel drive also. You need one here where I live. We get a lot of snow.

Have a good day all. HT have a good night.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/15/2020 5:21 AM (GMT -7)
PEACE AND COMPASSION TO ALL. HT
Posted 11/15/2020 5:22 PM (GMT -7)
Hi all. I finally found a birdseed bell at the store today! Grabbed one and more suet. Didn't take my feathered friends long to find them! Black capped chickadees, sparrows, cardinals, starlings and blue jays! Very active day at the feeder indeed! I'm thinking of picking up a bag of peanuts since I know the bluejays love them and it's so nice to see their color this time of year.
Posted 11/15/2020 8:27 PM (GMT -7)
So Pitmom, how do use use the suet for bird feeding. We have very strong winds here in the winter and all the loose seed blows away. It seems like I could stick it down some how with suet.

I got an 8 week old kitten yesterday, supposedly to keep my old dog entertained, but really just because I wanted one. He is a light gray tiger stripe and his name is Tommy. He is very busy. He is watching me type right now.

My mood right now is mostly bored and frustrated, just like everyone else. I made more pincushions but I am tired of doing that. I haven't crocheted any because I am afraid little claws will interfere. I try to go somewhere every other day or so, but I'm not sure where I can go now. We are not quite at lock down, but close.

Ah, well. Have a good evening/morning everyone.
Posted 11/15/2020 9:11 PM (GMT -7)
Not completely in deep country sounds good to me, Karen... There's a compromise to be made between being stuck in the middle of nowhere and inside a bustling urban or suburban area. Always convenient to have shopping nearby, at least, and not run the risk of being cut off during snowstorms and the like.

Re: suet, I remember this from my young(er) days. People hung up small containers of it from tree branches, and the birds would gather around to chip away at it. Always great to see the variety of birds attracted by it.

Cats and kittens would also be attracted to it, but mainly because the birds were... so it paid to hang the containers high up and far out on the branches, where the felines couldn't get to them.

Good day/week to everyone...
Posted 11/16/2020 3:12 AM (GMT -7)
Hi Paul.

It is kind of convenient. I have town to the north but it is a small town. Mostly residential. South of me is a dollar store. Behind me is state land which is cool. But a steep hill to get to it. In front of me is a busy highway though where I worry about my dog getting hit by a car, so she can't run free. Ten miles south of me is a small town where I go shopping and get prescriptions. Thus, the convenience. But I have seven acres and I wish I could build a house farther back away from the highway and a lot of the people. I hope you have a good day.

Kathy and PItmom,

I usually do suet but haven't so far this year. I use the square ones and then I have a feeder for popcorn suet. I call it that, it is little round balls and supposed to be peanut flavored. They love it. The woodpeckers love the suet. Though other birds and squirrels too.

Have a good day all, Jamie, a good night.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/16/2020 5:33 AM (GMT -7)
Buena, I have the metal suet cage and buy the suet blocks for the type cage I have. We had tremendous winds here last night and this morning, it's still hanging. I hang it from a shepards hook not far from my crepe myrtle bush so they have plenty of perch while they wait their turn but can still fly off easily should one of my cats come near. I use a small zip tie to form a loop at the top of the birdseed bell which then goes on the hook, too. Even if the bell falls, as it sometimes does, the birds will simply eat from it on the ground. At this time of year, the vinca major has filled in and gives cover to the birds but will move if the cats are prowling to give warning.
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