Posted 3/4/2021 12:25 PM (GMT -6)
Hi, my name is Rich aka Older Guy.
I haven't written in here in a long time. I need to get some feedback. I live with my sister but she doesn't seem to be very open or understanding about depressed feelings or sadness. She has been very matter-of-fact in the past.
But let me say what's going on. I made an appointment for the vaccine for Saturday. I have concerns about there being restrooms available at the vaccine site, which is the parking lot of a stadium. I have been told there are restrooms there. To be blunt, I am worried about getting the urge to urinate while I am in line for the vaccine, losing my place in line, etc.
I shared with a good friend. She always helps me feel better when we talk. However, she is only available about an hour out of a day. I don't have other friends who I can really share with, meaning I don't feel I can safely talk about my feelings of being sad or feeling alone.
I am in a 12 step program and attend an online meeting each day. Today during the meeting I cried quite a bit, and am crying right now. I know giving up the substance that I gave up, brings up a lot of feelings. However, this big wave of sadness and depression is really scaring me. I try to make room for all my feelings, but I am just not used to this level of sadness or crying.
I would appreciate any feedback from someone who has felt great sadness.