Well, it’s good that you reached out for help. It sounds like you’ve been trying and that’s good.
I was in your situation many years, before you were even born, and I pretty-well messed it up. I had not been taught any self-reliance skills, and have come to realize I was “gas-lighted” by my mother, who was abused as a child so she was out to destroy me like someone had destroyed her.
So, there I was at 27, depressed but did not know what to do about
it for I was used to everyone solving my problems for me, but there I was alone in a town away from my family, standing in the middle of my apartment trying to figure out a problem for the first time in my life.
I knew to call a psychiatrist, but to block out the correct solution, I came up with a “good reason” not to do that saying, “Well, which one in the phone book are you going to call?” So I didn’t call a psychiatrist which was negative thinking and put me in line with what I had been taught for years.
So, I just waited around until I had a nervous breakdown, which was negative, which is where I thought I deserved to be.
So, I think it’s good that you’ve already seen a psychiatrist and tried an antidepressant.
But then you say, “I can't deal with things well, I am struggling to stop crying and when I am on anti-depressants I just feel worse and even have attempted ******* * ******* ** *****. So, I have come off them, but now I am feeling bad ... but at least not lethargic.”
When I took my first antidepressant, it really helped. How many have you tried? Lethargic?
Yeah, I probably am. But medicines have side effects and when my depression lifts (I'm bipolar), I can see that the benefits outweigh the difficulties that medicines can cause.
Were you raised in a negative household? CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy)
can go hand in hand with treatment and medicine.
I read in a column where this woman said, if you believe at the start of a problem that you can solve it, it increases the chances that you will, for your mind will start looking for solutions. If you think negative, that you aren’t going to solve it, your same mind will start looking for ways to lose, because you told it to do that.
So, now I say to myself before going into a problem, “Think positive, think positive, think positive.” My conscious just told my unconscious what to do: look for a solution, like try another medicine or CBT or increased socialization, or exercise or a combination.
So, is your dx depression? Does it run in your family? How many antidepressants have you tried?
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