Hi there - I understand what you mean about being stuck and it's just you. I was just emailing a former therapist of mine when I used to live in KS and telling him about how I used to be and how I have come far with therapy and medication and that there is still something missing, that get up and go, it's gotten up and went...and I need to know how to find it...I have no idea what his response will be if, so if it's anything more than fake it until you make it, I'll share it with you!
I feel frozen, the things I used to love to do don't come easily anymore, everything is kind of wierd...there are many reasons why, I have 3 kids, my daughter has depression issues, I have my own stuff, there are a million things, but one would think we ought to have more control over ourselves than it seems to be...sometimes I look at others and they make going through their day look so easy and for me, it's just not that way...
I think it would be a great idea to write about your depression and make it a story for others to see -whether it becomes a bestseller or not doesn't matter...this would be your story and possibly therapuetic as well, might be worth considering?
I wish the best for you, I know for me, coming here and reading and writing when something speaks to me or when I have my own thing that I need info on, really helps my soul. I hope you find the same and more here.
"Even though I'm walking through the valley of the shadow, I will hold tight to the Hand of Him whose love will comfort me, and when all hope is gone and I've been wounded in the battle, He is all the strength that I will ever need, He will carry me."
dx: lupus 2004, sjogrens 2005
RLS, anxiety, IBS, migraines
Meds: Plaquenil, Zelnorm, Seroquel, Klonopin, Ultram, Flexeril, Zomig, Topamax