I am sorry that you are in so much pain right now. I would try and find some professional help. There are certian risks associated with all medicines but can tell you that they have helped me bridge from depression to fairly well adjused. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.
RandyPlease allow HealingWell to continue helping others by donating: http://www.healingwell.com/donate/Dx'd with Crohn's at age 12. Symptoms since age 5.
Learning to live with this Disease rather than be its victim after 40 years.