Not sure!

Ok so I am new to this whole thing.  I guess I should start by telling you what is going on.  I have a 4 month old daughter and a fiancee.  I love both of them with all I have, but, am very afraid of losing them and feel very close to losing them.  I have been having trouble since my daughter was 8 weeks old.  I have thoughts of suicide alot prolly every other day or so.  Me and my fiancee aren't getting along and I beleive it is my fault because everytime he comes home I am either pissed off or feeling down.  I haven't been diagnosed with depression but I feel like I might be depressed or bi-polar.  I have so much to live for and don't know how to get rid of these feelings that I feel.  I am afraid of getting on medication because I have heard so many stories of people never being the same again.  Plus I am low income and have medicade for insurance and don't want to go to the mental health at the hospital.  Please someone help me guide me so I don't do something I regret.

 

Hi Amaria,

You may be suffering from pardem depression, common for new mothers.  Contact your doctor.  Talk with your fiance.  Let him know your feelings for him and the reasons for your behavior and the fears you are experiencing.  Let him know you need his support and that you need to contact your doctor to get some help.  Don't leave him in the dark.  He may think you pushed him away not understanding why.  This way he has an understanding and can help you.  I hope this helps.  Please keep us posted.  We remain here for you.

Kari 

If you are having any thoughts of suicide you should get help immediatly. 

I went to mental health where I live and it wasn't that bad.  I was afraid someone I know would see me but they never did.  It is none of thier business anyway.

It is something to try, you never know maybe it will help alot.

Thank you so much to everyone for your help.  I am going to call today to get a appointment.  I am very scared but something has to change and soon.  I feel as though I am going crazy.

~Amaria~

I actually just made the appointment for intake it is on MArch 20th in the morning so I will let you know all know. My fiancee kept telling me I needed to see someone but I was scared and until you have a total stranger tell you it will be ok you really don't beleive it. Thank you again!

~Amaria~

May I put my two cent's in.Ok you said that you have a 8week old baby right?Ok what you are decribing sound's like post partem depresstion and I would stongly advice you to go to you doctor and tell her/him how you are feeling and if you do have it then there are med's to help you get pass this.Good luck and please klet us know how you are doing.I have you in my thought's and prayer's....................

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Thanks

Curley......

a.k.a.Mela...........