Ok so im still depressed! i havent posted ne thing on here in a looong time, cuz i know u guys dont wanna hear about
MY stupid problems. BUT i dont have ne1 2 talk 2, so i figured i would post something else on here...couldnt hurt right?
I'm not totally sure what all i posted last, so im just gonna start with school! My grades are pretty good, but im starting to slack off. I'm just not all that motivated to do my work. If i pass all my classes the rest of the year, i get 2 graduate...EARLY!!! That should b motivation enough, but its not. Ugh Since i'm homeschooled, im home ALL DAY!!!! i got my licesnse a couple weeks ago, but i dont have a car yet, so i cant go ne where without asking 2 borrow tha car. & even if i could go somewhere without asking 2 borrow tha car, i have no1 2 go with. all my friends from last year, are no longer my friends. they have all pretty much 4gotten about me & r friends with ppl at the school i used 2 go 2. I tried hanging out with 1 of them ((She was my best friend since 1st grade-10 years)) but she was with her bf. Everytime i try 2 hang out with her, shes with him or she isnt allowed. We havent hung out since...wow um i dont even know....since b4 thanksgiving We dont really talk on tha phone & she isnt allowed on the internet right now, but when she is allowed on, we talk 4 hours at a time & its like we're still best friends. Ugh idk ne more.
Umm guy wise- I still havent gotten over 1 of my ex's. We've tried 2 stop talking, but we always end up talking after a couple weeks. We both still like each other, but he doesnt wanna get back in2 a relationship with me, cuz we fight ALOT! Like we get along 4 a couple weeks-a couple months, then all of a sudden things r hell between us. We get in a stupid fight over something that shouldnt even matter, & stop talking.
Family wise-my mom moved out months ago & i havent seen her in a couple weeks. It kinda sucks, cuz i really miss doing mother-daughter things with her, but then again im glad she doesnt live with me ne more, cuz she was constantly yelling at me! My gma & aunt are having a really hard time paying all our bills & we've thought about moving, but cant find a house with a cheaper monthly payment than the 1 we have now.
Cutting-yea i've been doing that again lately. It seems like whenever i get really really sad//mad, thats the first thing i think about. I've done it 4 times in tha past 2 weeks! Thats like a new record. lol i havent done it that much in such a short amount of time EVER!!!! I know i shouldnt do it, but i dont care! its tha only thing that helps & well it doesnt even really help. I mean yea it takes my mind of things 4 a couple minutes, but after tha pain is gone, all my problems come right back....that might not make sense. Oh well.
ok i think i've wrote enough. haha i doubt you guys even read it all, which is fine i guess. I'm really just posting this 2 vent...if u have ne thing 2 say tho feel free 2 comment!