Posted 3/16/2006 1:02 AM (GMT -6)
Hope, I'm sorry you now have CHF. That really does stink. I don't think it's anything to be "happy" about, that's for sure. Any one of these disabling diseases will put you down until we find a way to get to the "acceptance" part.
I know I went through a long period of anger, denial, depression, anxiety, you name it, when I couldn't work anymore and it was an effort to even just take a shower or get dressed ... because I was strong as a bull and lifted Patients heavier than me, by my self before and loved taking care of them and all I did around my own home.
We're only human and when these Physical disabilities hit, we do feel "useless".
That's what I said for the first two years, "I feel USELESS." Didn't help me none to say it though, but I had to just let the initial shock of it all to sink in.
And then someone sent me a card in the mail that said, "In acceptance lies Peace."
A lady who's husband had been speared to death wrote that, and the story about him is a movie now, called "End of the Spear".
Anyhow, the only thing that I've personally found that helps, is my computer and telephone. I talk to folks who are sicker than me and that helps me to see what I do have and maybe cheers them some too. Also, something I call "distracting" myself, with things or subjects that interest me.
Also, finding good support groups. A good one is where the people have good attitudes and don't bring you down by talking about how sick they are all the time.
I've met tons of ladies near where I live who have what I have and we have a blast together.
I don't have a lot of money, but I've found ways to make the Neatest Emails to send to folks and they're either uplifting or funny. I gravitate to the funny side though, cuz I love to laugh and see others laugh.
People are always sending me the screwiest email stuff cuz they know about my funny bone. Ha.
Hope, my heart really does go out to you and I pray that somehow, some way, Peace and acceptance will get you through and you'll find what exactly works for you to make you feel worthy of happiness again.
You'll be in my prayers.
All the Very Best of Everything to you always.