Thank you for your replies to my post.
I have tried to get SSI before and was turned down. They even got me an attorney and I had a hearing and I was turned down again. I do not remember if they even brought up the paranoid personality disorder or not. I only remember the doctor saying something about
it once. He may have said you may have mild paraniod personality disorder or something like that or he may have said that I had it for sure. I do not remember any of the other people treating me saying anything about
I did get welfare which was not very much. When I went to the grocery store I had to pay in such a way that the people there knew I was on welfare. Being on welfare made me feel bad about
myself and so would being on SSI. My parents were both against me getting SSI. I am not sure exactly why, maybe they thought it would make me lazy or something. I told my brother I was going to go to a hearing to get it and he told many people about
my private business. I went over my uncle's and my brother was there and he must have told him and my uncle was very upset and ranting and raving about
how everyone needs to work.
I do not think anyone in my life understands the amount of pain this disorder causes me. When I talk about
it it just doesn't seem to get through to them. I think my family is supportive in a way but in another way not supportive at all.
I do not have any health insurance now. I can probably get some through welfare like I did before. I am thinking about
maybe going back to the doctors. I do not know what to do yet. I have alot to think about
. I do not feel that the doctors or therapists that I went to before were very good and I think that if I get that insurance that I did before I will have to go back to the same place. I also am not sure about
ion drugs being right for me based on how they effected me before. I know there are all different ones and I need to try others or combinations if I want them to work. I am thinking they may have even got the diagnosis wrong. I may have some type of inattentive ADD.
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