I hope you will reconsider applying for help through your State. If you need the help, whether it be Medicaid, food stamps, etc., then accept the help! As for these people that are hassling you over it, it may help to remind them that your State doesn't just "give" this stuff away, you have to be eligible! So obviously you are entitled to it; they do not live inside you ... and are in no position to pass judgement.
Sweetie, try to avoid negative people as much as possible; I think you should go apply, accept the help, and get better. A very wise lady used to remind me of something:
What other people think is none of my business!
Opinions are like "poo-holes," everybody has one!
When you point a finger at someone, four are pointing back at you!
God did not appoint anyone to judge me! When He does, I'll let you know! ROFL
Sweetie, hang in there! Forget what other people think, it's none of their business! You're a grown woman now. By the grace of God, there go THEY!
(((HUGS))) and I'm praying for you. Please keep posting!
EDIT: Try to remember, Living in the Solution eliminates the problem. One more piece of advice, about the sneers and comments; people can be very cruel. When you get reactions such as those, remind yourself that you would never trade places with them; as poor character is the worst illness and disease there is ... it's deadly to the spirit!!! I'd much rather be poor (and was, and went through much of what you describe, years ago) than trade places with the ignorant!
p.s. Meanwhile, check this out; it will help you cope as you move forward; a lot of folks are finding it very helpful, and it helps me tremendously: https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=452747