in an out of it all,
Your family is going through an overwhelmingly difficult time. I suggest you call your medical healthcare providers ASAP and get these issues properly addressed. If you are feeling like cutting, you are in so much emotional pain you're feeling like there's nowhere else to redirect it; and that's just not so. You all need counseling, guidance, and maybe help with prescription medications IMHO.
You and your family are in my prayers!!
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;"
"in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
"Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and shun evil."
"This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones."