Some already know the story but since so many are new,here it is...I moved in with my b/f to a different town after my whole life went downhill. I did not have insurance since I lost my job,and my bank account was down to nothing. I had been taking tranxene,wellbutrin,tylenol 3 with codine for about 3 years. Before that I had been on numerous types of meds. I went cold turkey from the meds last December with the help of my b/f and quite frankly shots of jack daniels several times throughout the days to get over the withdrawls. I did make it but,I still crave the meds and it seems as though there is a different sign everyday that I am off of them.
Examples are one that I now actually dream. Where before I think I was so doped up that I never remembered my dreams.
I find myself going back into the hyper mode several times throughout the week,where before I was always to tired.
I cry less,I laugh more.
When the depression cycles around again,I crave the meds. I fight it as I do not want to ever go back down that road again. And my b/f reminds me how much better I look as I have actually gained a few pounds. My color is better and I am more active.
I worry though that if something happens between us and I do not have his support that I will do what I am used to..call the doctor and get right back on them.
I have done some research on the type of meds I was on (that is scary all in itself) but found that the tranxene can take 2-4 years to be completely out of your system. And they say NEVER try to go cold turkey. I guess I must have been lucky on that part. But do not advise anyone to do it,more important with the drinking to get over it. But,I had to do what I could to make it through it.
Has anyone else experienced that same type of things?
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia