I haven't written in a while but I feel pretty bad. The last time we spoke I talked about this guy I thought I liked but I looked at his faults and problems dismissing the important gifts he has given me ;friendship, safety, security, tenderness, intimacy, company, laughter just to name a few. Well now that I realized all of these things I confronted him and now hw just wants to be "friends" This coming from someone who liked me for over a year. I feel absolutely hopeless. I dismissed him two times and had two abortions with him. My life is so ****ed up I don't know what is worth it. I let the feelings and opinions of others cloud my feelings for him and now it is too late. Once again I am completely alone. My family is a mess and I don't really have friends I can talk to. My best friend in the world was this man. Yes I have a counselor but I see her biweekly and I feel better only after I see her and it only lasts that day. I have tried therapy to the hill and have taken just about every antidepressant and I'm still that lonely girl like whan I was little. Why should I continue? I had something great with this guy and I discarded it. How do people go on when they feel like life is just pain and suffering?
Please help me