Deppresion and Addiction

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   Posted 4/18/2006 7:58 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi, i visited this site mostly last year but i came back this year, i'm seeking advice and opiniuns for my condition.

i went through 5 doctors, finally the 6th has diagnosed me 2 month ago with bi-polar deppression. i also have an addition to online computer games, the last game of them called final fantasy 11.

i wonder if anyone here has addiction of some sort in addition to deppresion.

i live with my parents and i strugle daily to get out of my bed, but recently i got a job and trying to keep buesy. my parents don't allow me to use the internet or online games as long as i live under their roof.

some people call my actions "childesh" or such, it hurts because i know there is some truth to the matter, specially that i am not young any more, i'm almost 33 now.

any thoughts or advice appretiated, i wanted to share this with you and get some advice. do you think playing online computer games is unhealthy for someone my age, it's certaily is where i come from but i wanted to know what other people think as well.
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   Posted 4/18/2006 8:34 AM (GMT -6)   
Hey Akram,  I wanted to tell you welcome back to HW.  I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis of BP.  I cant personally relate to your online gaming addictions but my ex-husband used to play a lot of those type of games quite often.  He is 36 years old and I didnt think it was childish so much, as sometimes I would play with him too but I didnt get what the big draw for it was.  He liked it as he could hook up with his friends and play...I still didnt see the point in it. Most of these type of games are geared toward men or young men and yes they are addictive.  But people who have Bipolar are notorious for having or have had some sort of addiction.  Either it is sex, drugs, drinking, shopping, games, or whatever.  I am not saying that all people with BP have some sort of addiction but the majority due or have suffer from one.  Just take it one day at a time and hopefully eventually you wont have an urge to want to play them or desire too.
I imagine your on medication for you BP that makes you tired that this is why you have trouble getting out of bed.  A lot of those medications have the side effect of sedation.  Congratulations on the job!! 


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   Posted 4/19/2006 2:59 AM (GMT -6)   
thankyou els, its good to be back this is a wonderfull site and community :)
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   Posted 4/19/2006 7:44 PM (GMT -6)   
Not online gaming, but I was addicted to alcohol and drugs in addition to having depression and anxiety.  I self-medicated with lots of Vodka every day.  Almost everyone I met in rehab had been diagnosed with depression.  I think it is fairly common for people with these disorders to get addicted to anything that will take them away for a while.  Good luck.

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   Posted 4/21/2006 8:04 AM (GMT -6)   
Ahhhhhhh the addictive personality!! Beleive me I know what you are going through. I started the drugs and booze when I was so young. Could not go through a whole day without one..
Then I started hiding out on the internet while I was married. To me it was escaping reality. But it became so bad that I thought about it while I was working,and would stay up until 3am,then have to go to work the next day.
And while I was doing that I started on meds. Soon I started abusing them. It wasn't long and I was taking double,sometimes triple the dose that my doctor perscribred. Whenever my life started getting harsh,I just popped more pills. Then started the drinking again.
I still crave the meds,and sometimes wish for the drugs. Just so I can forget everything for a few hours.
Atedogs is so right,that is what I did....self medicated the depression but all I did was end up making it worse. Because at the end of the day I was still depressed.

Good luck to you ,I wish you the best

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   Posted 4/23/2006 7:51 AM (GMT -6)   
Also a recovering alcoholic since 1979.............yes I do suffer from depression as well but not as bad as I use to .......Take care and God Bless.....Lyn
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   Posted 4/23/2006 8:46 AM (GMT -6)   
i think if alchohol was legal over here i would have bin an addict, when i drank i always over did it lol. some people drink to enjoy a social gathering in a party, but me i drank to get drunk. but when i stoped drinking i started with those online games which took my mind away from life. sometimes upto 20 hours a day on weekends and 6 hours durring weekdays, i was so exausted all the time but i didn't feel anything because of the pleasure i get from playing. but my body was getting fed up and soon i collapsed, i could not go to work or even play or sleep thats when i had to make a choice and i chooze to quit work for a while so i can play games as i please, which made things even worse, now i have bin 3 years not working and i came back to working it feels wierd to be working i'm not used to it anymore.
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