Rant and Rave all you like, it's good for you,
Im sure you're going to write something positive here someday, but can i remind you that you have already, must be something in what you write, i always read them,
Do what you can, when you can, you're right that getting a job is not going to solve all your problems, and placing to much hope in your interviews won't help either, once the interview is over, let it go, you're either going to get the job or not and setting yourself up for the rise or fall is not going to make any difference to the outcome,
What you are feeling about your Kids has got to be a very difficult thing to deal with, i can only say that you are in their lives, it may not be as you would like, but I am sure your kids know you love them, and know you are the one that brought them into this world, i doubt the spirit between Mother and Child can ever be broken, a connection will always exist.
As hard as it may be, i think you have to give in to your Daughters request for her baby Photo's, Just make sure you throw in a few with you in them,
Worthless, i doubt that, you had some time out from HW a while ago, and i for one wondered where you were, so you're not worthless, make yourself a list of all you feel bad about, and over a few days add the opposite and positive possibilities, keep adding the positive, you may even want to add the percieved consequenses, of each one, I know this helped me a great deal,
You're a good person Shy, and i really believe there is something great for you, at least to me that stands out