Hey every1. THis is my first time on.
My problem is that i dont have one..and am still depressed.
Ive been depressed since my early teen..and as teens are..just thought it was a phase. Alough i went to therapy and was on anti depresants.
At the moment im a manager with a pretty layed back schedule. I know my friends and family love me,But u dont consider these things when u sit and cry in your room and cry for hours on end for reasons that really are not clear to even yourself...so how can u tell some one else!
Eventually when uve sorta slapped ur self about a bit and said "come on jude..ur being a bit silly" (just like ur mummy does when ur a kid) u get a glass of water...due to dehydration from crying, apply some consealer and foundation and walk out into the world again to face another day as the happy, bubbley person that every1 thinks u are.
Im the agony aunt. Any of my friends or family have problems they come stright to me...i dont mind this because i like to feel needed. but just once...id like some1 2 listen to me( with out me have to pay out £60 per hour)and all my silly wee problems that mean the most to me.
REading everyone elses chats...it then makes me feel really selfish. And that my problems are silly compared to every1 elses.
I think that when things are going to well, that theres going to be an avalanche around the corner, so i cant enjoy what i have.
So even when things are goin well, im still depressed. So obviously, when things go bad, it will be worse...so is this as good as it gets... i hope not. It seems that because i have felt this way for so long that there is no other way to feel, and wat will stop me from feeling this way...if there is anything???