My boyfriend seems to be feeling worse.. I have a key to his house but noticed he took it off my keyring and said just to phone. I even just wanted to go round to cook or do his washing/ironing, but I'm not disagreeing with anything he says at the moment.
He has no tone in his voice anymore, if I try and tell him something cheerful thats happened he just says, 'oh how nice for you!' he's not eating ... and sleeping more than usual. He has crohns so struggles to keep weight on anyway, and it's only since he's known me and we make quite a big thing out of cooking/eating out has he kept a good weight.
He talks about things being easier if he just wasn't here. It may seem obvious but can I ask...
Am I supposed to brush over him saying things like that so not to highlight them or am I stupid not to panic if he sounds suicidal. How is he managing work everyday if he really felt like that? Can you cover your depression up in front of the right people?
Surely if someone feels suicidal you'd just go away and do it, is telling me just his way of saying how bad he feels? I think he feels he deserves to feel down because of mistakes he's made, maybe he's trying to punish himself.
Who knows...as you can see I'm starting to read into things now but have no idea what I'm doing!
'We all have a cross to bare, it's how we carry it that counts'