Empty Nest, Totally lonely

Hello any one. It's just not a good day. I guess I never really told my story. I was married for twenty-one years to an Italian in New York. I have always had every-thing to do with raising the children. I am from Ohio. I have had depression for many years, with my exes cheating on me. Allof that cultural bull. Then being diagnosed with the m.s. just made things worse. In 2000 I finally got enough nerve to divorce him, he was from a very prominant family. I had two of the children here with me until two years ago.naturally teenagers went for the money. So I am sick, severly depressed. I was dating a man here who I really still care for but he's an alcholic and won't admit it. So now I'm mourning that loss also. It's kind of like I don't know who I am anymore. I was always mom. or the wife or the girlfriend. I have to sell my home that my ex purchased for me and the kidsin five months. And I have no clue where I'll end up. I guess I'm just scared. I am taking my meds, and have found a new neurologist els, I guess I just needed to vent a little. sorry this was so long. Kris44

 Thank you so much for your response. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. I'm trying so hard to stay positive, Thanks for caring.  Kris44                                                                                    

 Thank you Brownleaf. I have always been interested in art drawing. reading. and walking but it has always been alone. I tried joining the Y here but it was to expensive. but I will look into other groups right away. Thanks again. Kris44

 Thank you Elisha. you sound like my youngest daughter Johanna. She had to go back unwillingly because he didn't want to have to pay any support.but she tell's me I am the strongest woman she's ever met.and she knows I'll make out alright. All of my kids are proud of me and help out as much as they can. emotional support, and Kat with financial. I knew as a good mother you had to let them make their own choices in life, and I also told them be careful what you ask for. When I divorced him, he more or less divorced us all and remarried a 23 year old, who he is allowing to run the buisiness that should have been our childrens in the future. But evidently I raised them right. Kat is a Radiologist. James went back to collage and Johanna is doing well in school.so she can get a job and move in with her brother or sister to get away from him and the new wife,who tries to play mom when shes the same age as my oldest.I pray for her every night, she really has a hard time . I just miss them so much,believe it or not , it hurts more than any of this.cause it's my heart. Sorry a little more venting there, Thanks again Elisha,I'm very greatfull . You hang in there and I hope your feeling better soon, Krista