Hi Dan and welcome, im usually in the p/a board, but depression affects me also so i come here to read and learn. I can relate to alot of what you say, and when i finished school last year (some college, not high school, im old haha) my panic got worse. Its still worse than it was then, because my mind is not as busy as it got used to being, since i worked part time and school full time i didnt have time after 12 hours to think so much about those types of things. Im not an expert, but ive been doing this for years, and please dont isolate yourself much, i know that you feel like you dont want to be around anyone, but isolating yourself, it tends to make things worse. I got to where, like others with anxiety, i didnt even want to leave the house, and when i did, it was a race to get back home. Im coming out of that, but.....takes time. For people that do not have depression or p/a its really hard for them to understand, even if they are stressed out. Dont let anyone tell you that its all in your head, ive heard that from the very beginning from family and friends, no matter what the doc has said. I hate insomnia and i hope it gets better for you soon, no sleep makes everything seem much worse. When i got some of the panic under control, sleep came a lil easier. This is a great place, and people do understand, i wish you the best of luck.
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