It makes a kind of sence to be scared of getting better.
If you get better It means you are going to have to cope with things you are not capable of doing now. However when you are depressed you can't even imagine, let alone remember what it's like to feel able to cope. So you think of trying to manage from where you are now.
When you are well you don't just feel able to cope, you have enough spark to enjoy doing things that are now impossible.
Getting better doesn't happen all at once. It's a gradual process so you can get used to what you are able to do and remember, if you don't feel up to whatever it is you are trying to do, you haven't reached 'well' yet. Don't beat yourself up about it.
Post Edited (Bethany) : 5/18/2006 3:43:23 PM (GMT-6)