I never realized how I was paralyzed by so much fear.
Fear of not fitting in.
Fear of being too ugly.
Fear of being to fat.
Fear of being the only person who doesn't have any talent.
Fear of letting people through the front door.
Fear of getting a friend who will want to tattach to me.
At this point I have no friends because i won't let myself.
I have tons of people who are always asking me to do things but i just avoid them (hide).
I am fat and cannot pick out an appropriate outfit to save my life.
I don't fit in anywhere.
I am the only woman I know who doesn't know how to decorate her house and is sooo lonely she doesn't like to spend time alone cleaning it.
At the same time i hate a dirty house.
I do not let anybody, except for my kids friends, pass the front door cause i have a dog who isn't potty trained and my house stinks.
I don't answer the phone, ever.
I don't go anywhere because I am ashamed of how I look.
I also don't go cause then somebody might want to be my friend and come over to the house.
As weird as I am, everybody likes me. They think I'm the life of the party cause I hide behind humor.
I DO NOT have the poor me just a fear of failure, I guess.
I Believe and LOVE JC and pray all day long.
I know exercise will make me feel better but I'd have to do it alone cause i won't ask anybody to go with me.
Yes, I'm quite the nut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anybody else out there this weird????????????????????