firstly, hi confused7 and welcome to HW!!
Well, it sounds like depression but i'm not an expert on this. I'm sorry that you're going through such a low feelings. You're not alone, i do feel the same way and i'm sure we're not the only one feeling like this. At first i also thought that i might be the only one who's having such an unusual and strange feelings but now i know there's a lot of other people who feel the same way as i feel. It's a good thing that you come here and talk about
your worries. There's many kind and helpful people here. They give warm comfort and wise advice. Don't worry of being judged or ridiculed. Feel free to share or vent your feelings.
wish you feel better. all the best n good luck!
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