My surgery date was set for yesterday at 7:30 a.m. I made the three hour ride down there. I was taken back to the surgical area to get ready. Now this is my fourth surgery with this Dr. and I trust him completely.
For some reason, that is beyond my understanding, when the dr came in the room to talk to me a minute, I told him I couldn't go through with the surgery. I don't understand this at all and it's got me so upset, I can't eat or sleep. I was dehydrated and emotionally not a good canidate for surgery anyway.
I have to have the surgery done in the next week if possible. My arm is in bad shape, and my surgeon is concerned the skin will break down around the top of the rod and create the need for redoing the entire procedure over.
My depression is so bad from many events going on in my home life, that I'm sure I wouldn't live through anoher surgery. That is silly and unfounded thinking on my part. This dr has pulled my through my other surgeries with no complications. I am horrified. I was absolutely petrified of going through this last surgery. I don't understand this myself. I have been on my antidepressant meds for a long time and they do a good job. I really think this is unrelated. I have to figure out what's going on in my mind. Any ideas??
Thanks for reading this. All of you are supportive and good people. Thanks for reading this.....Take Care......Connie