I ended my relationship with my b'f today and now I feel so cruel.
His depression is stopping us have even the most normal conversation now and it's become too much for me to deal with, every day I cry and that's not right. He says he'll never seek help which is what makes me think there's no point staying.
Any nice day is ended the minute I see or speak to him because of his depressed outlook on the world. We have a holiday to Vegas booked and payed for in 4 weeks and I mentioned it today and got a reply of 'Oh i don't think I should go anymore'!!!!!!!!!!!!! and when was he gonna tell me for gods sake...when I was packing the suitcases !!!
I thought it's best to leave while I feel sorry for him than wait til we hate each other and I have no self esteem left. I wish he'd cheated, hit me or something so I could hate him but I just pity him.
I was foolish to think that me leaving would make him wake up and smell the coffee but no, it's like he has NO feelings left. No anger, hate, love..nothing!
I've thought it's over before and he's treated it like a silly row but this was different...he suggested we still be friends but surely he'll treat me the same? Or will the pressure of a relationship not being there help you think?
Is it best to cut all ties or still check on him now and again? He won't share this with friends and has no family he speaks to.
Is he letting me walk because he wants me gone or because he knows how guilty I'll feel so thinks I'll come back..or is it likely he has no feelings left at all?
I've done nothing but love him since we met, I never thought that wouldn't be enough.