Posted 5/26/2006 1:46 PM (GMT -7)
I'd really like to know how long you have been off effexor.
I was in a deppressive slump (extreme blahs) and was prescribed a relatively small dose (75 mg) of Effexor. I took it for only 2 months before I had to quit cold turkey. (Note: small dose, short period)
The withdrawal symptoms were horrific and long lasting. For a week or so I had extreme anger (completely out of character). Actually, extreme anger is understated. Instead of mild irritation, I'd unleash a righteous reign of fury. I was extremely tired, unmotivated and just 'blah' too. I felt ill. It took me about 2 months for me to come right. With your much higher dose and extended period of use, it may take a longer for you to settle.
Now I agree with what the others said; that you should look into counselling and more medication, and any state run programs that could help you. However, there isn't a medication out there that'll make you like people you hate. You'll need to think of something else.
Also, your attempts at creating a myspace page is probably the best thing you could do. You DO have interests!!! You just NEED to find them. Think about what you loved in high school, people you admire, picture the perfect you. Then... go to it. Also, excercise and eat right.