depressed and cant get out

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Date Joined May 2006
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   Posted 5/27/2006 3:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello everyone, I am new to this site.  I have long term depression or you can call it dysthymia. I have been battling depression since I was 8yrs old. For the last 6 months I have been experiencing my lows and what makes it worse i get depressed even more b/c i am in my down period b/c i dont like my kids to see me like that.  Nothing excites me, nothing makes me happy, i dont like to be with my friends b/c i have to act like i enjoy being around them.  I am in a constant battle with my dad, whom i used to be close too.  I also do not care to be in a relationship with anyone, i still care for my ex.  We have been separated for about 3 yrs and he is now currently serving a 3yr sentence in prison.  Before he relapsed with drugs, I remember being happy and I was able to be happy with my family.  
I dont understand why its so hard for me to be happy with what i have, like having healthy kids, a nice home, financially stable, a good job.  Its hard for me to smile, everyday as soon as i wake up and through out the day all i can think about is going back home to sleep again, i wish i can sleep my life away or at least sleep until i can wake up being happy. 
Im sure some of you are thinking have i taken meds, i have taken almost everything, the best thing for me is seeing my therapist.  I have to learn how to cope with my dysthymia.  I wish i can make it go away.

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   Posted 5/27/2006 6:57 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Ya,
i don't know if i am right to say this, part of you is running from who you are at this very moment, and another part of you pulls you the other way, so i would think it would be difficult to feel excitement about much with only half yourself wanting to make this effort, all i can say is you have to make at least one thing a positive and place your energy into that one thing and leave the rest to a more stable time, make a chellenge for yourself, even if you have to fake it, everything begins with an act, so even if you do have to force a smile, when you are with others, sooner or later you may find that that forced smile is a real one
Its quiet here on weekends, so i hope someone else will have some good advise for you
please take care

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Date Joined May 2006
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   Posted 5/27/2006 7:46 PM (GMT -7)   
thanks for your input, what u said makes sense. sometimes i feel that its wrong or for some reason i do not deserve it, to allow myself to have fun or feel happy.

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   Posted 5/28/2006 10:09 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi S.B., I just wanted to welcome you to healing well forum.  We are happy to have you.  I see brownleaf has given you some excellent suggestions / advice.  I hope you continue to post often.  Take care.


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