Hi all Let me tell you a little about
me. I am 31 I have a 11 month and 13 yr. old daughter. I also have a 9yr.old and almost 18 yr. old step which neither lives with us. I am married to a great guy who is in the Army. We have been married for 5 yrs. out of those 5yrs he has been deployed twice and is leaving again in Oct.. We are stationed in Alaska. and home is Ga. Over the past Yr. I have had alot of things happened like death in the family, car accidents, lung cancer scares and so on. Now my dad is having a biopsy done for prostate cancer. Me and hubby have been fighting over supid suff in this last yr. We never faught we alway got along so great. Alot I think he is getting back into his I don't care stage to get ready for being over in Iraq again. The other times he didn't know he was going until 2 weeks before he left this time we knew as soon as we moved here which was Sept of last yr that they would deploy in Oct. of 2006. Some of it is I do think I am depressed about
it all. I have a bad felling about
this one. Last ones I didn't think about
what if. Well I did a little but not like this time. this time it is like I am thinking about
everything right down to the song that will be played. I just don't have a good feeling at all. It don't help being so far away from home either. Airplane tickets is not cheap. I was thinking about
going home for that yr but then I would lose housing and the waiting list is a 2yr wait right now to get onpost and off post housing in Alaska is high. The Army would move me back home but when he came back would not move me back up here. Plus my daughter doesn't want to move back home and be close to her real dad as they don't get along to well.
I tend to cry over small smiple stuff. If I don't. I tend to snap alot a the kids and my husband. I have no engery no motivation. Don't care what I look like or what my house looks like.
I just started Wellburtin 150 a day
Me and DH are going on a long over due 7 day cruise on July 9. I hope that helps me out just to be able to relax with just him. no kids no worries. just sun fun beach and the sea.