Could it be shame issues? You
opened up to him, now he knows all. Remember that he loves and accepts you as you are and continue treating your depression while allowing him to love you unconditionally. Perhaps you are not familiar with unconditional love and acceptance and your outpouring of guilt has now hampered your ability for those feelings of closeness that you had initially in the relationship? I'm only grasping here, at the typical.
You are not what you did (whatever it was). Many times we imagine things that we have done are much worse than they are as well. Focus on your values and character today. It's not about
the "do," it's about
the "who." Who are you today? You sound like a very sweet and caring person that deserves to be happy!!
~ Prayers & Shares ~
Finally, whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable
- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy -
think about such things.